am I setting my standards too high?
I've always had this thing where the choices I make regarding my future have to better myself, not bring myself down to a place I've been before. And that's true with boyfriends as well. Any guy I started dating had to be better in some facet than the guy I had before. But since breaking up with Gregoire I haven't found anybody that really makes the cut. And those I felt did, fucked off and hurt me. Like Dean disappearing and not giving me the benefit of the doubt, and then bootycalling me, like six months later. And Jon, claiming he wants a relationship adn then not putting in the effort to make it happen.
Am I that not worth it? Sometimes I feel like life is never going to get any better than this. That I've reached the summit of excellence. Now I know that's not true, but it sometimes really feels that way. And if this is the pinnacle, it's not even that great.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
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3 comments:
Wow, her comment really cut to the bone, didn't it? I can't believe she was able to see into you like that.
Dude, you said it yourself; you know this isn't "the pinnacle", and if this isn't the pinnacle, then obviously it gets better.
Alright, I'm weighing in on this one.
I think the problem might lie with your decision to only go for guys that are "better in some facet than the guy [you] had before". Love and/or attraction can't always be defined. It can't always meet a certain set of criteria. Your admitted disqualification of those who don't meet the ever-raising bar might actually be eliminating those you might find most appealing (given time).
Jordan: see that's the thing...theoretically, my life is really good right now. I should be happy that I'm working lots and am getting good roles. I just still feel unhappy with my life, as good as it is.
Llowyn: yes sure, I mihgt be attracted to someone "below my standards" but I don't want to go down any roads I've been down before. You know what I mean?
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