Thursday, June 09, 2005

I'm in a self-pitying mood.

My life sucks. I'm poor, and I live far away from the school. I don't work enough hours, I don't have enough time to spend with my boy. I wish I had more motivation, and discipline. I wish I could get up in the frickin morning. I wish I was in a play, and at the same time, I'm glad I'm not. I WISH I WAS IN ARTS ALIVE!

In fact, I wish I was in Arts Alive, did a fantastic audition, got Gertrude McFuzz, and showed up everyone with my awesemity. Unlikely, and selfish, I know, but I miss having lines! And dances to learn! And feeling important!

I wish I wasn't the super-ugmo-est (ugmost, if you will!) person at my work. I wish I hung out with more people. I wish I didn't have gigantic scars all over my face, and that my nose wasn't bigger than Laura's entire head, and that my teeth could at least pretend to be nice looking for ONE DAY.

I WISH I HAD A PHONE AND A COMPUTER AND A FUCKING LIFE.

I wish I didn't have to worry so much about my dog hurting something (Kirby, Nicholas; yes she started loking at him the other day as if she was going to attack him the way she attacks Tika. I am so worried that I'm going to have to put her down)

I wish I wasn't so damn morose. I'm a whiny pathetic nothing.

BAH!

3 comments:

Pineapple Princess! said...

<3 Alleah, just keep truckin.... school is bunk, and doesnt deserve notice, except for the all important graduation coming up.... Work gets better I promise. Maybe you were Hitler in a past life? *loves*

Pineapple Princess! said...

PS COMMENT ON MY BLOG!!!!!

VivaLaPinto said...

I must have been! :) And I notice you used the funny heart/cock'n'balls symbol! props!

PS: I WILL WHEN YOU POST, YOU SLACKER! lol! *loves*