Tuesday, June 13, 2006

I'm a bitch

I don't know why I do this whole nexopia thing. All I do is obsess over my presentation to the world, and how the world takes it. OMG, do I have a message today? How many more hits do I have? How does my profile look?

Who the fuck even gives a shit. goddamnit.

So I told Dave that I wasn't interested. He swore a lot at me, and tried to guilt me by saying he was worthless. I hate guys.

And of course I still do it. I still check my profile every minute or so, seeing if somebody messaged me back, investigating those who messaged me, seeing if I WANT to message them back. Why? Because I'm a gross, revolting attention whore. Sure, I like to excuse it by saying, I like to meet new people.

I just wish more of these people who I find, and talk to would become REAL friends. Then maybe it would seem a little more worthwhile.

BAH.

9 comments:

jordanibanez said...

Well... ^^^ He seems nice.

Anonymous said...

Alleah... wouldn't you like to get plus.. it lets you see who has viewed your profile (i got it now :P so I could create forums)

however, knowing who is seeing your profile might not help you out that much... it might make you more obsessive.. and you can find better people to be friends with in the forums. I swear, I made a few friends in the forums. Laura is one of them and she is friggin awesome! Just too bad she lives in Alberta.

Anonymous said...

I've said it once and I'll say it again - you need to travel.

Anonymous said...

the dace we met at the mall

i just clued in to who the person was you were talking about.

Richard said...

haha, I am obsessive about the nexing as well, but you know what? i love meeting people and I try to put the most honest version of me in my profile(of course the good pics never hurt!) but just project who you are over the internet and i say if people can't handle that screw them.
I have made friends over nex who are pretty cool.

<>< Mantrain

-Charlie- said...

Announcement: Alleah has no internet because her brother is being a meanie, so it may be awhile before we hear from her again. That is all. As you were.

Anonymous said...

speaking of real friends,

i lost your phone number :)

call me

VivaLaPinto said...

I snuck on the internet! Ill tryto post before I have to run away quick!

Unknown said...

im like that with myspace. oh geez.