with a hey ho and the wind and the rain...

I love us. :) Yes, yes I do! crazy SM Kylan, and all us crazy sweet actors, and Michelle, the best costumer ever, and our beautiful booth girls Meghan and Lisa, and Jerry the nicest pro director, with the best fake gay voice EVAR! The Twelfth Night is...(thinking...)....yeah, probably the best, most fun show I've ever been in! For the first time, I love all aspects of this show, from the casting to everything else. I am SO jazzed to be in this show!

The cast party sucked a little though...well opening was pretty ok, but there was two guys I'm interested in there, and somehow, they both got together and had this bizarre conversation about me where they both decided that, although I deserved a nice boy, neither of them was up for a relationship right now...did either of them think to tell ME??? NO! BAH! Well I'm glad THEY'VE got things worked out, but it sure left me a little bummed, thinking I had to make a decision when they'd already made the most important one for me, and together at that!

I ask you, how fucked up is that? So, now once again, I find myself without prospects for a while longer. I have to say, I'm finding this quite irritating. I keep thinking I have something that could be great going, and then it stalls without me even realizing it, and there I am again, back at square one.

I want a relationship again...I miss being someone's. That's pretty much the only thing that is keeping my life from being UTTERLY perfect right now. Is that bad? That even though my life is really going great, I'm still not satisfied? Typical Alleah, wanting it all on a silver platter, and wrapped up with a bow, too. Oh well. If I have to be content with the fact that I'm working at what I want to do...well, I suppose it'll do! ;D

Jk, jk, I LOVE that!!! I am a WORKING actress! Tomorrow is the first rehearsal of Urinetown, and in two weeks, will be the first rehearsal of A Christmas Carol. Levis' show will close in December, and then I'm into full time rehearsals of Urinetown...then in January, I'll be squeaking in at least two shows for the one act festival...as soon as that closes, Urinetown goes up for it's run, then as soon as that closes, we start the spring mainstage, and as soon as that closes, I'm in rehearsals for Know Why? and probably cutting my hair...eeek! I am scared and excited for that! So three paying shows, though how much remains to be seen, of course. At any rate, I've made some excellent contacts this year, and you can be sure I'll be auditioning for Jerry like a crazy person! :P I mean, it was the best possible thing, working for Jerry on this mainstage, because he's a professional who knows what I can do, and will recognize me the minute I walk in the audition room...which can only mean that if he HAS a role I could do, I would be a contender for it. (that is, if he doesn't hate me....which I don't think he does, lol!)

I have to say..I really love my life right now...And so what if a tiny little peice is missing? I don't need boys. I just want one because they are cuddly and warm at night! So BAH to them, I say. Watch me rock the socks off these shows and then I'll have a boy if I still want one...they're really just distractions, anyway.

:D Alleah is a fire, and she is going to burn, because goshdarn it, that's what a fire does!!!