Tuesday, July 20, 2004

My Life has gotten significantly more complicated...

umm...Geoff and I got back together.  (don't hurt me Brianna!)
nah, jk.  I, personally don't care what anyone thinks of this.  This time, I'm going to just try to make this work.  I'm not exactly sure how I'm going to accomplish this, but I shall endeavor.  I am so nervous, and not confident.  I'm really not sure how this is going to pan out.  I don't even know if I should be doing this at all.  I mean, I've given him my whole either you are or you aren't speech.  Oh wait, you don't know what I'm talking about, do you?
Well, yesterday, I was talking on the phone with him, and this was after he'd told me that he loved me but he wanted to get over me, and as we were saying good-bye, he said, "I love you"  and this waas the first time in like three days (which usually equals like five conversations) that he'd said that.  And I was like, "Don't do that to me!  Make up your mind!"  and he got pissed off and said, "Fine, I don't love you!"  and hung up on me.  And last night, I went over to his house (cause if I'd stayed at mine I would have jumped out of a window, I was that stressed with the kids) and we were hanging out, doing normal things, and then we're were lying on his bed together.  And the vibe is all, "I want you"  la la la, but he wasn't doing anything but rubbing my nose with his.  Then later I said to him, "you know you're going to have to work for whatever you want,"  and he looked away, and was like, "yeah, but are you going to smack me across the face if I kiss you?"  well, eventually he kissed me and we...did some stuff.  :)  afterwards, I guess I was looking kind of melancholy (which is what I was feeling) and he asked me what was up.  I can't actually remember what I said then (it was late) but he ended up telling me that we were together again.  He had been saying "I love you"  all night long.  I guess he seemed like he was really trying to convince me.
So now we're together again.  I really don't know what to think.  I'm afraid to get emotionally invested again, for fear of a repeat.  And if there is a repeat, I'm in this place where it could completely alienate me from him.  This is the third time we've gotten back together and I don't knowreally what to do, or how to act.
Anyway, I cannot continue to deliberate, because I have to go catch a bus, ok?  ttyl.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

w/e

VivaLaPinto said...

thanks, Brad.

Anonymous said...

lol. extraneous, extraneousness. jk
but shorten it up.
double space or something. it is hard to read
BRAD THE PIANO MAN

Anonymous said...

Oh alleah, you never cease to amaze.

HOwvere I must say... not totally surprised.....


Love yah

Melly